Confusion and Agony

Devendra Chachaji is no more with us. Yes I sometimes feel his pain but I am happy that he is relieved now. We all could have done more and we all could have prevented some things from happening. Yes. But it doesnt make any sense anymore. DLF Metro is now a question mark. Offer from Leeds has arrived. I am still waiting for Darmstadt. Taking study loan is not a very wise thing to do, given the uncertain market conditions. Helix is in a fix. Practically I am alone because practically I took the lead. I take the onus. I dont want to mess up Sanjeev's work. So I will do this job atleast. Come what may. On the other hand, they are building up a pressure on me to give my consent for marriage. I am holding. Beacuse I cant refuse. She is so good. She is so innocent. She is so pretty. I know, I cant get a better match. But can I marry so soon when I am professionally so confused? I need to sort out things before its gets too messy to clean up. The good part is that I now know that I am alone – in my friend circle. It makes easier to take decisions. You don’t have to ask a lot of people. Also the family came closer all this while. So there is a new avenue that has opened up. God is great. I want to leave a lot to him. Let him decide. I am sure he will do the right thing. May God bless his soul.

At the airport..

Arrival and departure
and the lounge we share
Plus the hustle & bustle
that surrounds us there.
What else is life?
I wonder sweet lord
For some its glory
for some its glare...